My Therapist said

My therapist suggested, stated, that I was a sensitive person, as does go with the "trade" I partake in. She pointed to the malaise surrounding my own inner space as a contributing factor in what is the circus (the dirty, over-worked, underpaid, abusive kind of circus) that has been, is and will be, my psyche. It occurred to me, that, being a sensitive bear, I have absorbed into the physical space that marks my bio-psycho-social-ness, like a willing sponge the despair and corruption swirling around me. This tornado of pollution; from the 13 year-old who saw it fit to smash my glasses and kick me in the head to the Colombian government's willingness to assassinate for coca cola; all poured into my thoughts, my aura, my colon and my ego (among other such sundries) where it taints, distills, and corrodes.

However, to use the words of another made-up space cowboy.... "I'm a leave on the wind."